My Story

If your story is anything like mine, you know all too well, how the battle with depression and anxiety can send you down a lonely path of fear and self-doubt. Where every day you settle for surviving, never mind thriving, as the days turn into months, turn into years. You tell yourself that today will be different, that you will do better and when you don’t, hope fades. The cycle continues and you look for distractions from your pain and discomfort in unhealthy relationships, addictions and chronic blaming. You find yourself surrendering to limiting beliefs and limited perspectives which ultimately leave you feeling like you are losing control over your own life.

Sounds familiar, keep reading... 

My Background

I started using food as a self-soothing tool at a very young age. By the time I was in my early teens, my eating patterns were out of control. I was binging and purging multiple times a day, every day. I put myself through a grueling daily exercise routine, desperately trying to transform a body I hated. As the pounds melted away, so did my self-esteem and overall sense of self-worth.
I secretly suffered with what I later understood to be eating disorders – Anorexia and Bulimia- along with co-morbid anxiety, depression and body dysmorphia. The image I skillfully projected to the outside world was one of strength and determination when the truth was, my sense of self-worth was entirely dependent on outside validation.

At age 17, I reached a breaking point. I felt hopeless and exhausted by a looping narrative that constantly reminded me of how I simply wasn’t enough, that I would never be enough. I remember thinking that I didn’t want to die but that I just didn’t know how to live. I needed help. 

My healing journey became about gaining valuable insights, practicing self-awareness and taking action. Initially however, I needed a shift in perspective. You see, for years I let statistics on eating disorder recovery and personal opinions determine my level of optimism and faith in my own ability to choose a different outcome for myself. I was inclined to believe that I was a victim of my circumstances.
Changing my perspective, changed my life experience!

Today I believe that the only limits are the ones we impose on ourselves. I believe that being accountable for our current reality, the good, the bad and the ugly, is paramount if we are to remain in the driver’s seat of our own life. I believe that insight is the key to unlocking unconscious patterns of thinking and being that keep us stuck. Finally, I believe that thinking and wishing won’t make change happen but taking action will.

Let’s get started on shifting your perspective and get you going on the path to wellness. I want to help you transform what IS into what you WANT it to be.

Wishing you insight and personal accountability,
Monic